Settle Vs Search

damn latey for some reason or another i been having this heavy question on my heart and dont matter who i talk to or how i analyze it, it just doesnt seem clear to me ......
i recently read a quote that said " dont settle for the one you can live with search for the one you cant live without" and when i first read it i took a liking to it and what it stood for, but as i began to read more into it a verse from a luther vandross song cross my mind.... in the song it said " if you cant have the one you love, than love the one your with. damn two strong quotes with opposite meanings.
so i ask myself which quote do i live by. do i search for the love from the man of my dreams or do i love the man who stand with me in reality. Is it bad to love the one your with rather than search for the one you cant live without. Would that be considered settling ....
what if the one you cant live without is out of reach.....
what if u been searchin for mr perfect and you guys neva crossed paths
what if u was a lil too late with ur search and the man you cant live without settled for loving the one he was with
than is it ok for you to do the same.....??????

TWISTED

I NOTICED THAT BEFORE MY SMILE COMPLETELY APPEAR

MY EYES STARTS TO WATER AND FORM MY TEARS

REALIZING A FROWN IS A SMILE TWISTED AROUND

MAYBE I WAS NEVER SMILING MY IMAGE WAS REFLECTED UPSIDE DOWN

Your miscommunication and my crazy allegations lead to a destruction of our relation . I Became a believer that you was a deciever and forced myslef to make it work, but still in the end i wound up hurt. Was it my love for you that you took for granted. I thought i was your everything the root to the tree you planted. The crazy irrational disagreements that didnt have to occur made me believe that the love i had for you, you had for her.

I WONT DRINK YA CUP OF BULLSHIT MR DRINKS LOL

I WONT FALL FOR YA BULLSHIT
U KNOW IM SMARTER THAN THAT
I WONT BELIVE THAT YAW ARE THRU
CUZ I BEEN HEARD THAT
I CANT BELIEVE THAT U LOVE ME
CUZ U ACT LIKE THAT
AND WE WILL NEVA BE ONE
CUZ U MADE IT LIKE THAT
SO WHEN I SAY MR. DRINKS I WILL NOT DRINK YA DRINK I WILL NOT FALL FOR YA LIES AND HOW DARE U BE SUPRISED
U HAVE KNOWN ME TOO LONG AND U KNOW THAT IM STRONG AND I WILL NOT BE YA SIDE JAWN U FLAUNT ON YA ARM
SO WHEN I SAY MR DRINKS I WILL NOT DRINK YA DRINK I WILL HAVE NO SYMPATHY AND ONE DAY U WONT MEAN SHIT TO ME I'VE DECIDED TO MOVE ON SO CONSIDER ME GONE
SO IM SAYING MR DRINKS I WILL NOT DRINK YA DRINK.....

IMMA RIDE FOR MY MOTHAF**KING NIGGA

THIS F**KED UP ASS SYSTEM WONT LET MY NIGGA GO AND THIS SHIT IS IRKING THE HELL OUTTA ME.SO F**K IT IMMA RIDE THIS SHIT OUT WITH MY MAN. MONEY ON HIS BOOKS HE GOT COMMISSARY STACKED VISITS TWICE A WEEK IM THERE SAME TIME SAME DAYS. BARNES AND NOBLES ORDERS HEAVY TO KEEP HIS MIND ENTERTAINED I ASK THEM WHY MY NIGGA STILL BOOKED AND THESE PIGS CANT EXPLAIN.MY NIGGA BEATING CASES SO THEY CANT HOLD HIM FOR LONG THEY SAID HE WAS GUILTY ON THE CHARGE BUT OUR LAWYER PROVED THEM WRONG.SHIT IF HE READY TO ESCAPE THEN IM DISTRACTING THE GUARDS, IM HIS BONNIE HE MY CLYDE BUT IM A LITTLE MORE HARD. I GOT THE MAK TUCKED IN MY BRA IF THE PIGS WANNA BUST THAN IMMA LET THE BULLETS FLY.DAMN IMMA LITTLE TOO GANGSTA FOR MY OWN GOOD BUT WHAT CAN U EXPECT IM A LADY FROM THE HOOD.

Dear blog,

I know havent spoken to you in a while, its just that a lot of things have been going on. Have you ever had so much to say to the point where you couldnt say nothing, well thats how i been feeling lately. So much have been going on. Just last week i allowed mr heartache to have another piece of my heart. I know your probably thinking... what was she thinking... cause i ask myself the same question, but still i havent yet to come up with an answer. This guy is so confusing. I never seem to know if he is coming or going. He made me feel like we was taking our relationship to the next level in so many ways. I guess he started to realize that he was pushing me too much and that the next couple of pushes will push me away forever, I dont know......The way he looked into my eyes made me melt like wax, dont get me wrong he looked into my eyes before but never like this....and the words he said to me sent chills through my body.... how do i allow a man to have this crazy effect on me...... I lot of times i just feel like he dont really know how to love because he has never been loved this much by a person before... A part of me want to hold him down and continue to love him the way i do but while i'm loving him whose going to give me the love that i crave for.Maybe I should take advise from Musiq and teach him to love. Can I really hold him accountable for something that he was never taught...I guess imma just ride this one through and pray that I dont get hurt while riding...