Without Words I Am Nothing

Dear blog,

I know havent spoken to you in a while, its just that a lot of things have been going on. Have you ever had so much to say to the point where you couldnt say nothing, well thats how i been feeling lately. So much have been going on. Just last week i allowed mr heartache to have another piece of my heart. I know your probably thinking... what was she thinking... cause i ask myself the same question, but still i havent yet to come up with an answer. This guy is so confusing. I never seem to know if he is coming or going. He made me feel like we was taking our relationship to the next level in so many ways. I guess he started to realize that he was pushing me too much and that the next couple of pushes will push me away forever, I dont know......The way he looked into my eyes made me melt like wax, dont get me wrong he looked into my eyes before but never like this....and the words he said to me sent chills through my body.... how do i allow a man to have this crazy effect on me...... I lot of times i just feel like he dont really know how to love because he has never been loved this much by a person before... A part of me want to hold him down and continue to love him the way i do but while i'm loving him whose going to give me the love that i crave for.Maybe I should take advise from Musiq and teach him to love. Can I really hold him accountable for something that he was never taught...I guess imma just ride this one through and pray that I dont get hurt while riding...